Also, I am very interested in the question of, why me? Why am I in charge of this body’s consciousness. How was it decided that of all conscious being that ever and will exists, I am conscious of this world from my point of view, at this point of time.

This is the only existential question I can’t seem to let go, especially since I am a non-theist. It will be easier to answer if I am a believer, or at least spiritualist.

It’s like how there are mass shooters and then there are sane people with guns. You don’t remember the name of the latter because they are the vast majority and comparatively boring than the former.